this new lenovo...

there's something the ergonomics of my lenovo, its keyboard's kinda further from my usual reach, that its edge is cutting through my wrists. gahhh

it hasnt even been a month and i already have complaints. oh noooo, am i becoming like everyone else, people who are never satisfied with their gadgets, carrying around their samsung S4s, xperias, and whatevers yet still complaining about the speeds, capacity etc. holding that huge touchscreen smartphone - something that still marvels me and surely marvels millions more who can't begin to believe how this glass thing responds to touch - yet yakking on and on about it being slow. i can't help but to hear boastfulness in that complaint

i know where i come from and i feel ashamed of myself once i start acting like this. us humans can never get enough can we? when i bought that lenovo, when i got myself a new smartphone too, yeah I was happy, I was finally on track with technology's latest, sort of. but i felt that i was also on track with potential constant dissatisfaction, the need for something faster, stronger, clearer with pixels so great that you can't make out the difference between real life and the screen (has anyone watched that video where the people got tricked into thinking that armageddon came? here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ynvKWYvyCqw ).

why are we like that? you're not? but you've got to have something in your life that you want to better right? be it your skills, your looks, your house etc. we're never satisfied. it sucks. it's taking us on a path to destruction, if you link it to... sorry, that's going a bit too far, but true no?

the good book says that only one thing can satisfy, only one fountain gives water so that you'll thirst no more. ooohh, steph's getting religious here. but heck, you don't know how far I am from being good and that's the beauty of it. no one has to be good to come to that fountain, it fact, it is expected that no one is good and that is why they need that fountain of grace.

i've just been skirting around the fountain tho, it's a bit scary to jump right in to it, to be immersed in it. it's tough for one, kinda calls for me to act against many habits I've picked up from the world. also, it's probably the deepest sea one can delve in to, one that is absolutely satisfies, for eternity. and the magnitude of the implication of that, scares me. to dive or not to dive in to it?