mask. so. friggin. thick.

shit steph, you can't even be honest in your blog.

no, you should never feel obliged to be. 

but you've got to be honest at some point.

why does being honest feel so foreign to you?

why does even typing about being honest to yourself and others, 

and not even being so, scare you? I didn't know you were so afraid of  being vulnerable. 

really.

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i just wanna curl up, have my Lord hug me and explain to me all that's whirling around in my head.

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and i need a good book.

philip yancey's a surprisingly good Christian writer.

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but I wanna curl up first. oh, answer me Lord